I have decided to start a series called flashback friday … pretty self explanatory I think 😉
These were taken 2 years ago in California… across from San Francisco … with a view of the famous golden gate bridge
you can see Alcatraz in the middle of the water, and San Francisco just above the bridge
I loved watching the fog roll over the hills
this above was the start of the fog rolling in
and below the fog rolling in from the pacific ocean … when I see this picture I can hear the foghorn.
this was a not so secret but secret looking tunnel
I wish you all a great weekend!
Someone told me when I lost my dad that it will get easier and that it takes five years to grieve . I am not sure that is correct . According to that I should be “fine” now … But I will be honest I still have complete break downs where I cry my eyes out and scream and wish that I could see and hear my parents again … Moments where I am mad as hell that they died on me.
And as for the five year grieving process; well I can say that, yes, it does get easier, as with time I got used to not having them around. I have gotten used to not calling my mom for her advice or expecting a birthday call from them and I have gotten used to not seeing them or hearing from them but as for missing them less or the easier part I am not so sure about. It gets harder for me to truly remember the sound of their voices, or the touch of their hands. And I hate that my children will never know them. And as more time goes by the memories feel like they are memories of memories.
To my mom and dad, wherever you are, may your souls be free and happy and know that you are forever in my heart and I love you and your memories at times make me laugh and at times make me cry.
My husband has been playing around with this recipe for the last month or so and it tastes so good ( he has made many variations of it from pumpkin scones to walnuts to cashews to banana blueberry) but this one, with pecans is one of our favourites.
3 cups of flour ( any flour you like, we have used 6 grains flour as well as spelt )
1 and 1/2 tablespoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoon of salt
1 teaspoon of cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon of vanilla
2 cups of pecans
1/4 cup sugar ( we replaced it with 7-8 dates)
1 large banana
3 tablespoons of maple syrup
1 and 1/2 flax egg substitute
8 tablespoons of melted cacao butter
Put flour in mixing bowl with baking powder, cinnamon, salt, and vanilla.
Throw pecans in food processor to finely chop
Then add the pecans to the mixing bowl
Then put the banana, dates , and maple syrup in food processor and mix together
Then add those to the mixing bowl
Get flax egg ready to add to mixing bowl
Add the melted cacao butter to the mixing bowl
Mix well and work with hands
Lay on paper to roll out and cut into shapes
Lay on baking sheet
And bake in oven for about 15 minutes at 415 degrees
( this depends on your oven , watch scones carefully)
And enjoy 🙂
My husband likes to add a vegan glaze on top of his, I prefer mine without.
For the glaze in a small blender mix a handful of pecans with a couple of tablespoons of maple syrup and a dash of vanilla, salt, and cinnamon and pour on top of scone ( this is for a small amount )
I get the kids going with some school work… and then head off to start doing dishes… then remember I forgot to start the washing machine and take the clothes out of the dryer… while I am on my way to the laundry room … I start to clean up the mess on the floor and realize I should vacuum … at which point I go get the vacuum and think of an email I forgot to reply to earlier that I had started … I go get my phone to reply only to see texts I need to reply to and another email which grabs my attention and sends me off web surfing for then next 22.5 minutes, after reading an article about ‘better time management skills’ 😉 to which I finally snap out of it and say…
What was I doing again?!
Oh yes, the laundry! …
I start walking back to the laundry room and on my way answer the phone , then help one of the kids with their school work and then get side tracked by a naked two year old clapping as she just went pee in the potty all by herself … to which I throw a big celebration party for the next 45 seconds!
YEAH!!!! hip hooray!!! woohoooooo…
Okay, now where was I going ?!
Now I need to go get some clothes for the naked 2 year old … run upstairs only to find a mess on the floor in all my kids rooms so I start to pick it up … and remember that I need to do a TON of laundry …
Oh yeah, laundry; that’s right! … let me go get that started…
Head back towards the laundry room only to realize it is garbage day and I need to go bring the garbage out and to the curb, before the garbage truck passes … on my way there, at the corner of my eye I spot a teeny tiny rainbow and some pretty flowers growing , drop the garbage to go grab my camera and take pictures ( somehow I do not get side tacked from doing this 😉
Delegate the job of the garbage to my 7 y.o. ( who not surprisingly gets side tracked himself with his own stuff) but the garbage miaraculusly does end up at the curb somehow.
I head back inside towards the laundry room again … only to bombarded by 3 kids begging to go in the pool… oh yes, pool !!! that sounds like a great idea! let’s go! …
and here I am sitting by the pool … enjoying the sun and watching my kids….
What was I supposed to do again?
Oh yeah; laundry, dishes, clean … UGH !
Those things can always wait! and those things are always there… I mean let’s be realistic, I have 3 kids and 2 dogs ( and a husband too 😉 ) … the laundry will never be done… nor will the other stuff… and yes they do get done at some point … and I do relish that 2.5 seconds when the laundry is all done 😉
And no it’s not that I lost my brain with having kids… it’s that I have a million thoughts to process and things to do … and that is my story and I am sticking to it… while I sit here on my deck soaking up the heat and enjoying the happiness surrounding me!
What was I supposed to do again?
Oh yes… I am doing it 😉
p.s. this post would probably be 50 times as long if I really included all the stuff that I attempt to do in a day and get side tracked doing or all the thoughts I process … but I got side tracked while writing this post, so this is what I got 😉
p.p.s this post was written this summer but I got sidetracked with life, and haven’t blogged much … but have a few blog posts in mind, including a vegan scone recipe coming soon.